Foods I love , and My

Weight loss Journey

I have total forgot about this web site that I was making about my recipes and my weight loss. It has been 10 months since I started doing this weight loss and I have loss so far a total 159 lbs. I have just added strength training into my workouts. So I'm hoping that this helps drop some more weight before the end of my year. I want to lose 11 more lbs by June first. That will be a total of 170 in one year. I hope that I can do it. Even if I don't have have done and lost alot since then and will be happy anyway. I will be posting alot more recipes that I have been making these past few weeks. I just have to figure out the right calories for them all so you all know for sure. But then they will be all different calories because if the different ingredients that you will use to make them but it will be close to the same. So please check them out. 

It has been some time since I had posted anything. I just haven't been myself. Having a little problems with my feeling these past few week. The holidays are kind of depressing me. It's been hard fighting with my self on eating and working out. Part of me keeps telling my self to stop and then the other keeps pushing me to go on. There are some day were I push myself to much and then the next day I'm in so much pain I can do anything. I also have been havong problems with my eating that I really don't want to admit but I have been feeling really guilty when I eat. I haven't been eating anything but when I sit down and eat with my family at dinner. All I do is drink water all day and that is it. I want to eat but it scares that I will eat to much and start to put the wiehg back on. I have lost 124 lbs as of today. I started at 387 and now I weight 263. I still have about 98 lbs more to go. But I feel like giving up today, which I hate this feeling. Why am I doing this? Is it really going to be worth it? Am I going to feel better about my self when I do lose it all and what happens when I can 't do it any more? I have so many question about it and nobody to help answer them. I feel as if my family doesn't care about it. I just wish they would show that they are proud of me and help lift me up when I get down about it. But I guess this is just a journy that I need to take alone and only do it for me.

It has been awhile since I have posted anything, but I haven't been myself. I never thought I would get to the point in my weight loss that I wanted to give up. All I do is cry all the time. I feel as if I can't do it any more. I still look in the mirror and think that I will never lose this weight. I'm down to 270 lbs but I still see and feel the old me. I want to look in the mirror and feel proud of myself but I don't. I just don't know what I should do to get over  this feeling. Shoudl I keep going and hope that this passes or just give up. I want to eat so bad some times, and then when I do get a snack or even eat a meal I feel really sick to my stomach. I feel guilty when I eat. I have only been eating about the max of 700 calories a day or sometimes less. I just hope I make it through Christmas. I have been looking for some health cookie recipes to make to replace my normal ones. If I get some I will post pictures and the recipes. I have been trying different banana bread recipes but none of come out like I want. Most are to many calories. I'm still going to keep working on that. But if any body has anything that can help me get over this new hump in my weight loss I can really use the help.

I haven't posted in a few day. I was busy on thansgiving day with dinner and family. Plus I just really wasn't myself that day. I seemed to have a hard time handleing the pressure of watching what I eat and still make sure that I got a good work out in. I pushed myself in the morning by walking longer on the treadmill. I spent most of the day going over my numbers for calories for my dinner. I have been not doing to well with the eating. I really don't eat all day and then only eat a small dinner and than some popcorn later. I know its bad but I'm scared to eat any more. I'm stuck again with the lose of weight and I don't want to eat to put any weight on. I workout twice a day, but I feel like its not enough. I should be going more but what. I eat less calories then I burn everyday. I just don't know what to do anymore. I have to get to my Doctors soon for some other problems but First I have to save up some money because with out insurance its way to much money. I have been looking every where to get something I can afford but that just isn't happening.

I had a very busy day today. I worked out for an hour and a half this morning, then I had to get my pumpkin pie done. I ran to the store to pick up some orange juice and sugar because I wanted to make some homemade cranberry sauce. I also go part of the seet potato casserole made and in the frig. Did afew other things and then went out and did a walk with my son for about an hour or so. I did something new for dinner. I wanted to make turkey hot dog but I had no rolls. So I took totilla wraps. I cooked some onions and peppers in a little red wine. Then put some cheese whiz on the wrap and placed the cooked pepper and onion mix with the hot dog. wrapped it up and put it on a baking sheet lined with foil and then baked then for 15 minutes in a 350 degree oven. They were pretty good. I'm getting stressed about tomorrow. Not for the cooking but about the calories in the food that I'm making. I have tried to lighten up most of my recipes to cut back. I just want to make sure I don't go over to much. That is why I'm still going to get up and do my moring workout. I will wait until after dinner to go out for my walk to work off some of the food I ate. Just wish me luck that I don't fall to hard off the diet tomorrow.

Had a really good work out this morning. Cut both my husband and son's hair. Got alot done today. I even made some brownies. I will be posting a recipe and pictures later today. Want then to cool before I cut them up and take pictures. Today I even did alittle workout on my Gazelle freestyle. One of my neighbors gave it to me. She is 80 years old and she walks some mornings with me when she is feeling up to it. She seen me the other day walking out in the rain and called me into her home to give me a talking to about walking out in the rain. Also she told me that seen hr husband passed she don't need it any more and asked if I wanted it. Of course I took it. Anything that is goung to help me drop this weight is great. I will take all the help I can get to keep to keep on this path. There are some days I need a little more help then others. But if I fall I get right back on track and keep going. I'm getting a little worried with the holidays coming. Its hard to stay on track with all this stuff pushed in your face. That is why I come up with changes to all recipes that I love, so I can still eat it and not feel bad about it. 

So glad that I woke up feeling so much better. When I got up aroun d 6:45 both kids were up also. It was about 7:00 when I went out and walked my 2 1/2  miles. It was a little chilly. My son Jacob went with me and we talked about Dinner and also about our plans for prepping everything for Thanksgiving dinner. Going to do most of the work on Wednesday so I can relax and enjoy my Thanksgiving too. I really didn't do much after I came back from the walk. I just watched some You tube video's and edited some recipes. When I went an weighted in today I was so excited. I had lost some more wieght. I'm down to 277 lbs. from 281 lbs. Last Monday. So now I have lost a total of 110 lbs.  I just feel like I will never get to were I want to be. Everybody tells me that it won't come off over night. I know but I feel like it is taken forever. I just want to look in the mirror and be proud of what I look like. Around 2:30 I went for my second walk and walked another 2 1/2 miles, but I don't know what happened because the very last 1/2 mile my foot started to really hurt bad. I made it home and put it up for a few minutes and the pain died out some. I started dinner which was really easy because I pulled one of my premade dinner from the freeze last night. So all I had to do was put the pan in the oven and bake it for 40 minutes and put salad on the table and then dinner was done. Not going to do much tonight. Going to work on my dinner menu for the rest of the week and then relax.

  Today is another easy day. I have posted a few new recipes for thanksgiving. I also have been trying to get recipes together to try to still make my sweetpotato's with marshmellows, but not going so well. I try to stay under 1200 calories a day, but finding a healthy blance for thanksgiving is getting hard. I not only have to make food that taste good, but also health for the rest of my family. I know my husband isn't that picky but my daughter Sam is. I didn't worl out today because I'm still not feeling to feel. My feet are feeling a little better so I hope that I can gt up in the morning and do my two mile walk. If not I have to do something. I have to keep on moving. 

  I not feeling to hunrgy today which is bad. I should be eating but all I hd was a smoothie, for my breakfast. I'm looking forward to dinner tonight, because I'm making some turkey, spinach burger. Don't know what sides yet. Maybe some oven fries. 

Good evening to you all. Today has been a very bad day for me. I haven't been feeling to well and I'm in alot of pain. I have been really pusing myself these past few days with working out and now I'm paying for it. I just wanted to stay in bed all day but I didn't because I wanted to keep moving. I didn't do my two walks today either. I really wasn't that hungry, but I did have my cranberry sauce muffin and some pumpkin spice coffee. I didn't finish all the coffee because it seemed to burn my stomach alittle. I didn't eat lunch because I spent most if the day trying to get this page somewhat together so I can really start doing my recipes and stuff all on it tomorrow. I only heated up left overs from yesterday which was the Chicken Tetrazzini. I will be getting that recipe up soon. I already have the photo up, but add the recipe and calories hopefully by Monday. Now I'm just relaxing and going to go work on recipes for my thanksgiving dinner. Need to change my old recipes into healthier one so that I can also enjoy Thanksgiving.