Foods I love , and My

Weight loss Journey

It has been some time since I had posted anything. I just haven't been myself. Having a little problems with my feeling these past few week. The holidays are kind of depressing me. It's been hard fighting with my self on eating and working out. Part of me keeps telling my self to stop and then the other keeps pushing me to go on. There are some day were I push myself to much and then the next day I'm in so much pain I can do anything. I also have been havong problems with my eating that I really don't want to admit but I have been feeling really guilty when I eat. I haven't been eating anything but when I sit down and eat with my family at dinner. All I do is drink water all day and that is it. I want to eat but it scares that I will eat to much and start to put the wiehg back on. I have lost 124 lbs as of today. I started at 387 and now I weight 263. I still have about 98 lbs more to go. But I feel like giving up today, which I hate this feeling. Why am I doing this? Is it really going to be worth it? Am I going to feel better about my self when I do lose it all and what happens when I can 't do it any more? I have so many question about it and nobody to help answer them. I feel as if my family doesn't care about it. I just wish they would show that they are proud of me and help lift me up when I get down about it. But I guess this is just a journy that I need to take alone and only do it for me.